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Monday, July 31, 2006
on the bus thinking. then thoughts flew in not by chance from God. He said. ' I will strengthen and support this cell. Bracing through all difficulties. All will be back.' cool. right. But dang. still upset. heh. that will be very long for all to be back for cell. That's like ages. I should not doubt God though. But that's like very hard. I've become stoney. erika noticed I wasn't quite right today. Kept asking are u ok are u ok? I guess I am not right man. sigh. just felt so like asking WHY WHY WHY. but no one gives an answer like duh. I wont ask God why ? because I've learnt to ask why He do things that way. Because of Jeremiah 29:11. So I'll not ask Him. not to question God.
Whether God give me a divine appointment or what. i met jerald my track president. he looks so tired and sad. I feel very sorry. I am sorry sorry. I meant it. I've giving a lot of reasons to not run. IVP. But God said Yes. And I'm going back. But to me I dont feel Ok. I'm afraid I'll use it as a stupid thing to hide from everyone. Saying I'm busy dont disturb me. And all. Whatever la. But the reason for me to go training is to vent my anger on whatever I've hid in my heart. and let it out during running. Because I do know God is still healing my already broken heart. He is still healing it since church camp. God I'm just argh. Dunno why I'm frustrated with myself.
Well, I'm going back to run. Pray that all go well. Pray that I'll be HAPPIER. which I'm so not. i need to be alone for a while. I guess.
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a lady that is striving to dwell in the house of the Lord
who is learning to see God's greater purpose for her
who wakes up and learns to be thankful for her blessings
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Monday, July 31, 2006
on the bus thinking. then thoughts flew in not by chance from God. He said. ' I will strengthen and support this cell. Bracing through all difficulties. All will be back.' cool. right. But dang. still upset. heh. that will be very long for all to be back for cell. That's like ages. I should not doubt God though. But that's like very hard. I've become stoney. erika noticed I wasn't quite right today. Kept asking are u ok are u ok? I guess I am not right man. sigh. just felt so like asking WHY WHY WHY. but no one gives an answer like duh. I wont ask God why ? because I've learnt to ask why He do things that way. Because of Jeremiah 29:11. So I'll not ask Him. not to question God.
Whether God give me a divine appointment or what. i met jerald my track president. he looks so tired and sad. I feel very sorry. I am sorry sorry. I meant it. I've giving a lot of reasons to not run. IVP. But God said Yes. And I'm going back. But to me I dont feel Ok. I'm afraid I'll use it as a stupid thing to hide from everyone. Saying I'm busy dont disturb me. And all. Whatever la. But the reason for me to go training is to vent my anger on whatever I've hid in my heart. and let it out during running. Because I do know God is still healing my already broken heart. He is still healing it since church camp. God I'm just argh. Dunno why I'm frustrated with myself.
Well, I'm going back to run. Pray that all go well. Pray that I'll be HAPPIER. which I'm so not. i need to be alone for a while. I guess.
