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Tuesday, September 12, 2006
It's scary really. I meant it. Things are happening. If you people do not know. Life and death can be in seconds. Right in front of me. A taxi could have really knock someone dead. right in front of my very own eyes. With the call of God in the middle night to pray again. It no longer seems this world in safe. But God kept saying you are with me to me. ' They are mine.' Thank you Lord. I know that I am yours. Your precious child. You called and chose me. Yet I do not know what you want of me. You send visions dreams you speak so clearly and true to me. To bring me right on your lap once again. God I really hope you take me home. I no longer feel I'm li
ving in this world. I'm feeling it more like an illusion more and more. I just don't want to stay here but be right beside you. Even I have to pray 1000 years I will. I meant it. Though I'm quite sure I would fall asleep somehow. God bring me through it. someone please pray for me.
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Thursday, September 07, 2006
friends make up a big part of your life. But still the words of God linger in this small mind of mine. 'You're my best friend!' you said. A big wide smile spread across my face. People around me thinks why am I smiling to myself. But it doesn't matter. What matter most was the four words. I just want to say thank you to all my friends out there be it that I seldom talk to you. In this world time is just running out so out to me. If I have left a month in this world what would I do? I would go and share Christ with many and have solitude with the Lord. Thank you God for these friends who are in my life. Too many to be named. Thank you Lord for my friends. Thank you Father for all.
I've started to listen to chinese songs again. interesting ya. samantha actually listens. heh. But only 1 particular band that I listen to. They are basically the only one I listen to. Only their chinese songs. F.I.R I don't know perhaps it's their way they sing makes me really listen to their music. Great band! That's the only chinese band.
Attachment is getting quite fun. Got a nice indirect boss. His name is Eric. Interesting. He truly can make one laugh. Taught me how to talk to aunties. Interesting how to strike a conversation just make me smile. God put wonderful people around me. Though they have not known Christ yet but I believe God is doing His work. I've got a beautiful job. To call and talk to people. Time passes quickly. Went out to east coast for lunch with my bosses. They drive so no harm. Nice isn't it. I've got another treat today. :) Thank you God. I'm going to study His word. I love blogging :) . cya peepx
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this picture is taken at zara. tonight I spent the night editing photos learning more phot techniques. I got to learn illustrator! I can't get the brushes working. So angry! oh well any way. I forgot to blog this! Sinyi gave me a L.I.F.E card. It's really cute. I'll post the picture tomorrow that reminds me what life is all about. L stands for Love. I for Integrity. F for Faith. E for effectiveness. Oh well that's what crusade LIFE meeting is all about it's just like a service but well our service got a name ! :) I thought crusade is really organised :) All the commitees are really great be it SM and ST or subcomm are great. They are really faithful workers. Faithful. It dawned upon me why can't I meet my friends at 7 and stay in orchard since I'm going to botanical gardens. Why am I faithful the past few months or a year for cell? Why am I like the only one? I'm tired I complained to God. He asked am I not faithful? It's a test of your faithfulness to ME says the Lord. I was like alright. I'll go for cell. Don't be mistaken, I'm not discouraged. I just don't feel encouraged to go for cell. I'm stopping here. Really gotta sleep. take care peepx.
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
"Praise is not a 'happy-clappy' song. Praise is not the fast songs before the nice, slow worship songs. Praise is a declaration, a victory cry, proclaiming faith to stand firm in the place God has given you. Praise is a proclamation that the Enemy's intent to plunder you will not rock you. Praise declares that you will not be moved by the Enemy attempt to snatch you away" - Darlene Zschech
I was reading in the morning for say about 2 hours during work. Reading Extravagant Worship. Heh. God you're so cool. I was like 2 hours I was without a comp some how so I can't work so I read I was like so good I'm slacking. I was like hey God you're my best friend. He said " you too." I was like yeah. we are best friends. That makes my day though I feel sleepy at least I got through it still. I reckon. Me, Samantha Leo needs a job that move around all day and not stay in the office. Because it makes one FAT! heh. I miss the sun! I miss running swimming and playing sports.
Talking about that when I was walking home. I told myself LEARNING is forever. So I'm like going to really study Graphic Design and Photography. I guess I'll go indept into studying these. I love Photography as well as Graphic Design and in any case both of them work really too well with each other. I guess. Being a photographer can't be too bad. But I guess I'm someone who hates to be someone else when I'm just Samantha Leo. Come on, I don't like office wear nor do I like heels. I love my converse sneakers my blue fold up jeans and my T-shirts. That's me. I don't like to have people watching over me all the time.Oh well. I want to be ME!! I promise I don't want to work in such firms again. At least not for now!
Basically been reading Extravagant Worship. It's a great book. Awesome. I guess I got my answer why I'm grieving all these while. Intercessory. That's the word. I was reading. Praise and Worship is intercessory. Let alone my tears. I guess. Father you show me things in your time. Which I'm really happy. Shout it OUT! to invade hell and excite the heavens. to invade hell that we worship the only ONE true God that they be afraid of who we WORSHIP.
I don't know why I felt very lost few days back. I don't know why am I crazy or what. I was like why aren't there any christian art workshops. Why are there so many worship workshops but no such workshops not counting sonicfest. that's unfair. I promise if I'm not going hillsong conference or whatsoever I promise I would go for sonicfest. Taking art elective because that was what I've been searching high and low for. One more thing. I will only teach only ONE person art and design. But till now I do not know who. That's a promise. I guess God the one criteria I set is really too hard for anyone. Sometimes I don't feel humble at all too. I want the person i teach to be humble oh well. I believe there is someone like that. God I was lost for a few weeks out in the wilderness and now I'm back in Your loving arms. God you know what I meant you showed me again in another vision :)
I've got a uber cool God in the house !
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Saturday, September 02, 2006
I've found myself indulge in reading christian books as a time for me. As for working. I don't like it. Because I can't do it. I just could not. Not that I'm crazy or what but work drive one nuts. Basically, I guess the way I stand so strong to do art. Will never fail me. I learnt how important it is to me. God knows how I love it. Sometimes, when one discriminate it. I'll explain what truly it is all about. God created art. If there isn't God there is no art. Art are things that can't be express in words. They are the inner feelings of one in the inside. I've understood that. I miss God. But yet why I just could not get back to Him. When in the deep waters that I can't swim upwards. A moment of anger. Oh well the book above is one book I'll get after my attachment. I'll import it if I have to. Selah. Pause and reflect. I need it man. My work. argh. super boring. They want me to wear like heels. I'm going to faint. I don't believe in such things. I want to be me. The person God made me to be. to be out painting drawing. Learning in the ways of art from Him. But I just hate this. I'm going botanical gardens tomorrow morning. Be it draw paint or whatsoever. I am just going to do that.Spend time with Him. I want to spend a very very long time with Him. I want to tell Him all that I'm going through. I also want to get another book
are there any dancers in the house? when I was young I learnt ballet. Believe it or not been through those exams anyway. Doubting right. heh. Whatever it is. Dancing it's beautiful I'll never deny it especially when I was young I had to sit there and watch mum and dad dance. They are just wonderful just that they stop what they are that just weird or perhaps I missed this kind of moments. alright. life is beautiful. God brought me through this 5 days. 6 more weeks to go. I'll survive.
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Tuesday, September 12, 2006
It's scary really. I meant it. Things are happening. If you people do not know. Life and death can be in seconds. Right in front of me. A taxi could have really knock someone dead. right in front of my very own eyes. With the call of God in the middle night to pray again. It no longer seems this world in safe. But God kept saying you are with me to me. ' They are mine.' Thank you Lord. I know that I am yours. Your precious child. You called and chose me. Yet I do not know what you want of me. You send visions dreams you speak so clearly and true to me. To bring me right on your lap once again. God I really hope you take me home. I no longer feel I'm li
ving in this world. I'm feeling it more like an illusion more and more. I just don't want to stay here but be right beside you. Even I have to pray 1000 years I will. I meant it. Though I'm quite sure I would fall asleep somehow. God bring me through it. someone please pray for me.
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Thursday, September 07, 2006
friends make up a big part of your life. But still the words of God linger in this small mind of mine. 'You're my best friend!' you said. A big wide smile spread across my face. People around me thinks why am I smiling to myself. But it doesn't matter. What matter most was the four words. I just want to say thank you to all my friends out there be it that I seldom talk to you. In this world time is just running out so out to me. If I have left a month in this world what would I do? I would go and share Christ with many and have solitude with the Lord. Thank you God for these friends who are in my life. Too many to be named. Thank you Lord for my friends. Thank you Father for all.
I've started to listen to chinese songs again. interesting ya. samantha actually listens. heh. But only 1 particular band that I listen to. They are basically the only one I listen to. Only their chinese songs. F.I.R I don't know perhaps it's their way they sing makes me really listen to their music. Great band! That's the only chinese band.
Attachment is getting quite fun. Got a nice indirect boss. His name is Eric. Interesting. He truly can make one laugh. Taught me how to talk to aunties. Interesting how to strike a conversation just make me smile. God put wonderful people around me. Though they have not known Christ yet but I believe God is doing His work. I've got a beautiful job. To call and talk to people. Time passes quickly. Went out to east coast for lunch with my bosses. They drive so no harm. Nice isn't it. I've got another treat today. :) Thank you God. I'm going to study His word. I love blogging :) . cya peepx
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this picture is taken at zara. tonight I spent the night editing photos learning more phot techniques. I got to learn illustrator! I can't get the brushes working. So angry! oh well any way. I forgot to blog this! Sinyi gave me a L.I.F.E card. It's really cute. I'll post the picture tomorrow that reminds me what life is all about. L stands for Love. I for Integrity. F for Faith. E for effectiveness. Oh well that's what crusade LIFE meeting is all about it's just like a service but well our service got a name ! :) I thought crusade is really organised :) All the commitees are really great be it SM and ST or subcomm are great. They are really faithful workers. Faithful. It dawned upon me why can't I meet my friends at 7 and stay in orchard since I'm going to botanical gardens. Why am I faithful the past few months or a year for cell? Why am I like the only one? I'm tired I complained to God. He asked am I not faithful? It's a test of your faithfulness to ME says the Lord. I was like alright. I'll go for cell. Don't be mistaken, I'm not discouraged. I just don't feel encouraged to go for cell. I'm stopping here. Really gotta sleep. take care peepx.
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
"Praise is not a 'happy-clappy' song. Praise is not the fast songs before the nice, slow worship songs. Praise is a declaration, a victory cry, proclaiming faith to stand firm in the place God has given you. Praise is a proclamation that the Enemy's intent to plunder you will not rock you. Praise declares that you will not be moved by the Enemy attempt to snatch you away" - Darlene Zschech
I was reading in the morning for say about 2 hours during work. Reading Extravagant Worship. Heh. God you're so cool. I was like 2 hours I was without a comp some how so I can't work so I read I was like so good I'm slacking. I was like hey God you're my best friend. He said " you too." I was like yeah. we are best friends. That makes my day though I feel sleepy at least I got through it still. I reckon. Me, Samantha Leo needs a job that move around all day and not stay in the office. Because it makes one FAT! heh. I miss the sun! I miss running swimming and playing sports.
Talking about that when I was walking home. I told myself LEARNING is forever. So I'm like going to really study Graphic Design and Photography. I guess I'll go indept into studying these. I love Photography as well as Graphic Design and in any case both of them work really too well with each other. I guess. Being a photographer can't be too bad. But I guess I'm someone who hates to be someone else when I'm just Samantha Leo. Come on, I don't like office wear nor do I like heels. I love my converse sneakers my blue fold up jeans and my T-shirts. That's me. I don't like to have people watching over me all the time.Oh well. I want to be ME!! I promise I don't want to work in such firms again. At least not for now!
Basically been reading Extravagant Worship. It's a great book. Awesome. I guess I got my answer why I'm grieving all these while. Intercessory. That's the word. I was reading. Praise and Worship is intercessory. Let alone my tears. I guess. Father you show me things in your time. Which I'm really happy. Shout it OUT! to invade hell and excite the heavens. to invade hell that we worship the only ONE true God that they be afraid of who we WORSHIP.
I don't know why I felt very lost few days back. I don't know why am I crazy or what. I was like why aren't there any christian art workshops. Why are there so many worship workshops but no such workshops not counting sonicfest. that's unfair. I promise if I'm not going hillsong conference or whatsoever I promise I would go for sonicfest. Taking art elective because that was what I've been searching high and low for. One more thing. I will only teach only ONE person art and design. But till now I do not know who. That's a promise. I guess God the one criteria I set is really too hard for anyone. Sometimes I don't feel humble at all too. I want the person i teach to be humble oh well. I believe there is someone like that. God I was lost for a few weeks out in the wilderness and now I'm back in Your loving arms. God you know what I meant you showed me again in another vision :)
I've got a uber cool God in the house !
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Saturday, September 02, 2006
I've found myself indulge in reading christian books as a time for me. As for working. I don't like it. Because I can't do it. I just could not. Not that I'm crazy or what but work drive one nuts. Basically, I guess the way I stand so strong to do art. Will never fail me. I learnt how important it is to me. God knows how I love it. Sometimes, when one discriminate it. I'll explain what truly it is all about. God created art. If there isn't God there is no art. Art are things that can't be express in words. They are the inner feelings of one in the inside. I've understood that. I miss God. But yet why I just could not get back to Him. When in the deep waters that I can't swim upwards. A moment of anger. Oh well the book above is one book I'll get after my attachment. I'll import it if I have to. Selah. Pause and reflect. I need it man. My work. argh. super boring. They want me to wear like heels. I'm going to faint. I don't believe in such things. I want to be me. The person God made me to be. to be out painting drawing. Learning in the ways of art from Him. But I just hate this. I'm going botanical gardens tomorrow morning. Be it draw paint or whatsoever. I am just going to do that.Spend time with Him. I want to spend a very very long time with Him. I want to tell Him all that I'm going through. I also want to get another book
are there any dancers in the house? when I was young I learnt ballet. Believe it or not been through those exams anyway. Doubting right. heh. Whatever it is. Dancing it's beautiful I'll never deny it especially when I was young I had to sit there and watch mum and dad dance. They are just wonderful just that they stop what they are that just weird or perhaps I missed this kind of moments. alright. life is beautiful. God brought me through this 5 days. 6 more weeks to go. I'll survive.
