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Friday, June 16, 2006
my life have changed have you? about that story. i will start with it soon. because utterly long. a lot of things happened. I guess, everyone have been guessing and asking. But have no idea who that friend was. ok. erm. I decided not to reveal it still. though many know. Alright. I can tell you something. If i were to die for christ now. I will. 100% no doubt. because I've been walking with Him. He's too amazing. He love me too much too much. I've understood what is pain. the pain we have can't equal to the pain God felt. When we His children sins. He is hurt. When His children disappoints and all. He feels it. I know he does. But He forgave. That's how great God is. certainly.
to the friend, thank you so much that you still forgave me though I told you nasty things somehow when I lost hope and so angry and irritated. I lost faith in you, seriously but now, I guess i still have faith in you and hope. it's increasing. that includes all of my friends. painful experience. but it was certainly a test of friendship.one more thing. the friend that I asked God for is you. thanks. because I don't like to be in a big group of friends and go rarara. thanks a million friend. our lives have been changed. no doubt.I will think of more. then I write ok. I have not write all ok? haha.last night, I dug my 6 journals from 2004 till today. I like to write. don't u think so.. haha. I love to write about life what God says. I've strayed away from God countless times. too many times. haven't really read thru. because very lazy to do it.. because it's like many pages and I write long entries. from sadness joyfulness to God speaking to me to visions and the gifting he gave. I actually told God I did not want that gifting. because I cant tell why is it there for me. because knowing about future is horrible. I don't want. because I know what ppl going to say. what I think of it'll happen. It's what I'm going through. but the vision class. says it all. because I'm really going crazy i thought. sometimes when i say something to God. there'll be a reply many times. Only some times no reply. like it generates i don't know how. i ask God replies. He's not my best friend i would say. He's my father, tell me what to do and all. He knows i hate praying. because lalala. i'm busy bumble bee. but now, i just have to book the room to pray every night. because I just have to pray. another thing. I'M on a 3 mths break from Youth ministry. That means for once, I can sit and listen to what God says. because it's no longer what I want but what God wants. this fact, people u need to know. If you do not have joy serving the Lord. It meant something wrong. I've been not joyful for 1 and a half years. I guess this break will allow me to seek what God wants and not what I want. Because I like and I want, I went to serve God. Ask and did not wait for His answer. Someone taught me before. God does not need you to serve Him. He is God. He wants His children to sit and listen to Him. He only desires that you Love Him. If you want to serve Him. He wants you to serve wholeheartedly and with joy. yup. basically charissa, if you're reading this. Your name appeared in my journal because during cell, Zec said write someone u may want to know better in the goals. so I put your name down don't know why. random.alright. As for another thing. when sharon goes back to the room. I didn't want to go. Then i was like going to the toilet. God says turn back. Ok fine. I turn back. He says go in and pray. So i sat down and ask what am I going to pray for. The cell. I was like the cell? of all things. why cell ? ok. so I start praying. then that night for cell, I'm super happy. because I saw so many lives changed. this post is so long. but my story my testimony is even longer. :) . soon I promise. I will write what God did. what happened to me. yup. that's all.
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Ngee Ann
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psalms 27:4
a lady that is striving to dwell in the house of the Lord
who is learning to see God's greater purpose for her
who wakes up and learns to be thankful for her blessings
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Friday, June 16, 2006
my life have changed have you? about that story. i will start with it soon. because utterly long. a lot of things happened. I guess, everyone have been guessing and asking. But have no idea who that friend was. ok. erm. I decided not to reveal it still. though many know. Alright. I can tell you something. If i were to die for christ now. I will. 100% no doubt. because I've been walking with Him. He's too amazing. He love me too much too much. I've understood what is pain. the pain we have can't equal to the pain God felt. When we His children sins. He is hurt. When His children disappoints and all. He feels it. I know he does. But He forgave. That's how great God is. certainly.
to the friend, thank you so much that you still forgave me though I told you nasty things somehow when I lost hope and so angry and irritated. I lost faith in you, seriously but now, I guess i still have faith in you and hope. it's increasing. that includes all of my friends. painful experience. but it was certainly a test of friendship.one more thing. the friend that I asked God for is you. thanks. because I don't like to be in a big group of friends and go rarara. thanks a million friend. our lives have been changed. no doubt.I will think of more. then I write ok. I have not write all ok? haha.last night, I dug my 6 journals from 2004 till today. I like to write. don't u think so.. haha. I love to write about life what God says. I've strayed away from God countless times. too many times. haven't really read thru. because very lazy to do it.. because it's like many pages and I write long entries. from sadness joyfulness to God speaking to me to visions and the gifting he gave. I actually told God I did not want that gifting. because I cant tell why is it there for me. because knowing about future is horrible. I don't want. because I know what ppl going to say. what I think of it'll happen. It's what I'm going through. but the vision class. says it all. because I'm really going crazy i thought. sometimes when i say something to God. there'll be a reply many times. Only some times no reply. like it generates i don't know how. i ask God replies. He's not my best friend i would say. He's my father, tell me what to do and all. He knows i hate praying. because lalala. i'm busy bumble bee. but now, i just have to book the room to pray every night. because I just have to pray. another thing. I'M on a 3 mths break from Youth ministry. That means for once, I can sit and listen to what God says. because it's no longer what I want but what God wants. this fact, people u need to know. If you do not have joy serving the Lord. It meant something wrong. I've been not joyful for 1 and a half years. I guess this break will allow me to seek what God wants and not what I want. Because I like and I want, I went to serve God. Ask and did not wait for His answer. Someone taught me before. God does not need you to serve Him. He is God. He wants His children to sit and listen to Him. He only desires that you Love Him. If you want to serve Him. He wants you to serve wholeheartedly and with joy. yup. basically charissa, if you're reading this. Your name appeared in my journal because during cell, Zec said write someone u may want to know better in the goals. so I put your name down don't know why. random.alright. As for another thing. when sharon goes back to the room. I didn't want to go. Then i was like going to the toilet. God says turn back. Ok fine. I turn back. He says go in and pray. So i sat down and ask what am I going to pray for. The cell. I was like the cell? of all things. why cell ? ok. so I start praying. then that night for cell, I'm super happy. because I saw so many lives changed. this post is so long. but my story my testimony is even longer. :) . soon I promise. I will write what God did. what happened to me. yup. that's all.
