every beat of my heart

‚ô• Thursday, March 31, 2005

4:59 PM

I'm glad that I bought the [look to you] album by hillsong united.
I love the songs in there. Be it praise or worship. It's a blessing to me.
I've been spiritually dry for sometime. but this album. brought me back to the word of God.
after I watched the DVD and saw how the Youths praised the Lord, I'm touched.

these few days since monday, I've been going to the city like 3 days in a row. I had nothing to do too. I went plaza sing on tuesday to get the [look to you] album. then yesterday, went to make my IC as I lost mine during 'o' levels. can't imagine how did I lose it ... then went down to excelsion hotel to check out Luther Music.. Guitar lovers... go down to excelsion hotel , basement to take a look. an eye opener for me. you'll see all types of guitars. I regretted not bringing my camera there. there's a guitar with jesus face on it. that's an electric guitar of an angel and the most interesting. a electric guitar which look like a machine gun. went down to swee lee to ask about the guitar strap for my guitar. Oh well, it was a wasted trip as they do not have stock for the screws. but it's ok. if there's a mistake, the lacker on my guitar will break. so in the end. I bought a string to tie my guitar. I got my guitar a pick case too. So, my picks will not go missing again..

TILL I SEE YOU
THE GREATEST LOVE THAT ANYONE COULD EVER KNOW..
THAT OVERCAME THE CROSS AND GRAVE TO FIND MY SOUL
YOU ALONE ARE GOD OF ALL
YOU ALONE ARE WORTHY LORD
AND WITH ALL I AM MY SOUL WILL BLESS YOUR NAME

‚ô• Tuesday, March 29, 2005

7:36 PM

I know it's too early.. but .. just to let you people to check this out.. Festival of praise this year is on 5th to the 7th of Aug.. Sonic fest is on the 28th, 29th and 30th july. hillsong united, planetshakers and sonicflood is coming down .. well it'll be such a happening event.. between late july and early August . I bought the new hillsong united album today[Look to You]. went to plaza sing to buy it. well I like it. the songs and the dvd have showed the new generation of worship. I will never regret buying the album. oh ya. my favourite thing of the album besides the songs and dvd was the graphic design is good. I liked it. explored another type of creativity now. poof. for more info of sonic fest .. go to www.sonicfest.net or go to guitar4christ forum
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Tell the world
Don't wanna stand here and shout your praise
And walk away and forget your name
I stand for you if that's all I do
Cause there is none that compares to you

Cause all I want in this lifetime is You
And all I want in this world is You

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that.. tell the world that..
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it's the truth that se me free
How could this world be a better place
But by thy mercy, by thy grace

C'mon C'mon we'll tell the world about you [ Look to You album by hillsong united]

‚ô• Saturday, March 26, 2005

12:19 PM

Best Dad in the whole wide world..
Yesterday I went to catch Miss Congeniality 2 for mid night show.
Oh well, that's my first time catching such a late movie..
I went with Dad and my sis plus my mentors... etc
actually is with my Dad's cell people.
Quite a nice show though..
But the best part is that my Dad, went to watch with us. crazy right?
as in I'm like 17 .. he will be like how old and yet he still went to catch that movie with us.
haha... Love my Dad loads..
I feel bad now. he misses his weekly tennis session today
of course due to the aftermath of that movie.
we only reached home at around 2.23a.m today.
so ya..
Going for JAM session later. :p
for once I had the best weekend of 2005 ?
tomorrow I'm going to east coast .. life is fun for once.

‚ô• Friday, March 25, 2005

2:17 PM

oh well. stoning at home again. as usual
looking at Hillsongs United latest album -- look to you.
the album have not been release in Singapore yet.
how long will it take? it's already out in Aussie.
here's the sample songs..
http://www1.hillsong.com/store/media.cfm?clip&AlbumCode=ULTY&AlbumTrackNo=1

today my mum's cell coming over for dinner [ POT LUCK]
it'll be fun. while I'll be in deep trouble.
still have not touched amazing grace and old rugged cross
Instead, I've been playing lord I live your name on high.
ok thats it.

I'll try my best to figure out how to play the 2 songs. >.< [annoyed]

I'll blogged again

‚ô• Thursday, March 24, 2005

10:31 PM

Met up with my 2 mentors.
At least, of all things meeting up with them and talking about life is the like true
some things I experience in Life they experience it too..
I still have not practised Amazing Grace and Old Rugged Cross
[ the songs are not really "my generation"]
Since I'm rotting at home doing practically nothing
Now my Dad is super enthu on Guitars and keyboards...
Shaking my head in disbelief..
At least he have the thought of buying himself a guitar.. Geez..
Hope he gets an electric guitar.. I think he won't too... [ contradicting myself]
Most probably he will get another acoustic guitar..
Anyway.. Dad seems to be enjoying himself in Believer Music so am I
I'll continue learning Guitar .. that means I'll be going to Worship Dynamics I
enough of GUITAR ..
Oh well.. I missed the Planet Shakers Concert.. Sigh I'm so sad..
Currently I'm reading Chinese Cinderella to take away some of my Boredom..
You can see that from the above right ?
I learnt something today about GOD's word :)

Should I go for the saturday JAM session ?
Since I am rotting at home doing practically nothing

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10:48 AM

went for believer music as usual ..
learnt a new strumming rhythm.. MARCH 2
it's getting tougher now.. and I am still struggling with the song Amazing Grace...
I can play other songs.. this song and old rugged cross is a killer...
It will work out somehow tomorrow I hope..

life is kind of bored now

‚ô• Tuesday, March 22, 2005

10:32 PM

hey.. here's the latest Harry potter book.. It'll only be release on July 16 this year.. Still a couple of months away.. I wonder what took her so long to write this book.. Whatever it is I'm looking forward to it.. I have nothing else to blog.. that's it

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8:46 AM

got something interesting down from Clown Clinic... In ancient England could not have sex unless you have the consent of the King(unless you are in Royal Family).Whwn anyone wanted to have a baby, they got consent of the King & the King gavethem a pla card that they hung on their door while they were having sex. The placard had F.U.C.K(Fornication Under Consent of the King) on it. Now you know where that came from.. I got into Ngee Ann poly Business studies.. interesting isn't it... nice one.. at least I know I will get a laptop... I knew it will be NP.. anyway.. Term starting on 24th May..It's about 2 mths away...

‚ô• Monday, March 21, 2005

11:24 PM

Legolas.. anyway.. well I like him.. but guess what.. LOTR, the fellowship of the ring.. I fell asleep yesterday while watching that.. I did that also when I was in Myanmar last year I guess.. It was quite boring.. tomorrow, I'm getting my posting.. God knows where I'll go.. Life is just so unpredictable... Now, I dread blogging.. my blog seems so dead boring sometimes

‚ô• Saturday, March 19, 2005

9:51 PM

poof.. had a busy day.. went to visit my aunt in the Raffles hospital.. this hospital is super classy.. nice clean very comfortable.. I reached there at 1430 .. then in the end my mum and dad reached only at like 1730.. Have no idea what took them so long.. but I'm glad.. at least I need not stay at home .. or else I'll stick to my Computer.. that's all for today.. uploading pics after my trip to Myanmar..

‚ô• Friday, March 18, 2005

4:50 PM

changed my blogskin again.. can't help it.. I thought it was ugly so I changed again.. another creation of mine.. quite nice.. but I don't like the font.. I'll make do some how for now.. I like the song.. I have no idea why.. Fizah, I'm sorry I did not design the anime blogskin for you as I realised,, that isn't my cup of tea.. I'm sorry about that.. I won't be putting this skin up in blogskins.. so ya.. My aunt is in hospital now.. I have no idea why or whatsoever.. a bit messy here and there.. stoning all day today... why isn't there like something to keep me occupied everyday.. Hope that I can get a job soon.. It's better than stoning at home.. designing skins.. watching tv.. sleep.. comment on my skin.. yea.. :)

‚ô• Thursday, March 17, 2005

9:34 PM

hello.. anyway... I'm going to change blogskin again.. Can't help it.. Got sick of this .. so ya.. whatever it is.. I'm still working on it.... as for my trip to Myanmar.. I won't be blogging about that in here.. went out with qiuhui today.. went town again.. that's all for now... I'll go practise guitar now.. byee...

‚ô• Wednesday, March 16, 2005

3:48 PM

hey people.. I am back after 5 days.. I'm very tired after the 5 days... I feel that I did a lot of things compared to the last time... the team only consist of me, auntie mary, pastor thomas, evelyn, junjie, sharon and Jingyi... Everyday we drink tea by the roadside.. that's cool.. because we won't dare to do that the last time.. we set on mini trucks.. going everywhere in Yangon.. I tried their local food their roadside store.. the fried potato.. that's nice.. plus the samosa.. something like that I think.. whatever it is.. their temperature is hotter than Singapore .. there was no aircon taxis.. their air con is open air..went to churches.. saw their way of life and visited orphanages.. Played with them.. we still went into Dallah.. haha.. I know you ppl will be blur.. I'll blog another time la.. I really feel that I am much more fortunate than them.. I will never forget the kids at the orphanges... this makes my heart sink......

‚ô• Friday, March 11, 2005

10:45 PM

.. I'm going overseas tml.. so won't be blogging for 5 days.. haha.. I'm going Myanmar.. this is my second going there... Alpha is in my house again. I asked a question today.. A question that totally stunned me a few months ago.. That's when me, Sarah, Joanne and Cedric met up at Tiong Bahru plaza.. then Sarah's friend saw her.. then came in to talk to her.. so as it was a casual talk.. so someone asked her friend if she wants to go to church.. Guess what her friend replied.. Why don't you come to my temple first...? so I was absolutely stunned...everyone was silent for a moment.. and her friend left.. Cedric told me last year during mission trip before.. but I thought it was nothing.. then after that... things changed.. Got my answer today.. Happy.. I can get out of singapore again.. I'll take loads of pics..

‚ô• Thursday, March 10, 2005

8:24 PM

found something interesting in blogs.. soon.. you ppl will see video in my blog.... I kind of like the mtvs though.. here's the website www.musicvideocodes.com .. :D

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7:58 PM

I'm back.. I skipped school today .. No reason.. the school is empty that's all.. anyway I won't be staying there after my 3 mths.. I did a blogskin today.. I felt like it so I designed it.. The skin protrays an image that is like a saddist skin?? I don't know why I chose that font.. whatever it is.. I linked that to my blog.. feel free to comment.. now I'm really addicted to designing blogskins.. I enjoy doing this... I'm leaving for myanmar this saturday.. this is my 3rd time going overseas without my parents.. but I just feel so what.. I want to go for a trip alone with my friends.. just them.. no adults??? I know it is not quite possible now.. but it'll be soon.. that's it .. :)

‚ô• Wednesday, March 09, 2005

9:50 PM

hey.. I am stupid today la... I reached sch at 10.20... super late la..then crashed geog lecture.. pathetic no. of people.. decided not to go school for the next few days.. and I left school at 12.45.. I was in school for like only 2 hours plus.. we go already.. what is this.. I roamed the streets of orchard today.. I have no idea why.. I felt very bad so I did that.. at least it was not as bad.. today was my first guitar lesson at believer music.. I think it is a nice place with nice environment ... I got to learnt my rhythm properly.. anyway, sis if you're reading.. Daddy is going to buy a keyboard soon.. I assure you.. we saw a couple of them at believer music.. and guess what.. I saw MR Rudy ng there la.. he was once my CME teacher .. I recognised him because of his rigidness.. he walks like a robot to me.. glad to know so many people are in believer music.. people who want to learn keyboard, guitar and vocal training should go believer music.. they rox.. I like their systematic way of teaching.. with evaluation at the end of the session..

‚ô• Tuesday, March 08, 2005

7:38 PM

... I'm feeling like crap now.. totally screwed up.. super down and bored today..well I have no idea where I'm going but someone is going to TP... whatever... I shall blog smth nice now.. Yesterday, me, weisheng and qiuhui went to watch movie again.. this time is I do I do.. Nice movie.. I think I laugh a lot.. then after the movie as per normal, went to arcade.. play photohunt and daytona.. lost again.. it's nice going out with them.. :p At least it keeps me away from thinking... sigh.. I must say 05A4 is really a captain's ball freak class.. we played again today.. slept like a log on the bus.. I was totally drained... tomorrow will be my 1st guitar lesson at believer music.. Why can't I just smile... ?? I'm so lost and screwed...

‚ô• Monday, March 07, 2005

10:37 AM

yesterday.. I met up with qiuhui and weisheng to discuss the JAE 12 choices.. they took so long.. in the end.. I chose all different from them.. but anyway.. after that we went to arcade and play .. We played photo hunt, taxi which I dunno how to play.. then weisheng had to help me play..haha.. played daytona too.. I miss playing that.. weisheng and I played that of course he win la.. wonder how many times I crash.. lol.. then I'm going SP later for my DAE for creative media design......... I really want to get in that course...anyway... I leave it to GOD...

‚ô• Sunday, March 06, 2005

10:13 PM

hey ppl.. I finally finished applying.. I'm happy.. but actually.. I start to put stupid courses in.. What to do.. That's me ..haha.. I'm just sick of choosing...whatever it is.. I'm going Myanmar.. that's it.. 5 days I'll be there.. I'll miss Singapore food I guess..haha.. anyway.. I'm looking forward to my guitar lesson... Now I leave everything to God where he wants me to be .. I chose courses I had interest in.. that's before.. whatever it is.. I need a break from everything.. I had enough ... All I need is a bit of LOVE I guess.. To all who helped whom I disturbed.. I'll disturb you ppl no more.. I applied so ya.. I don't understand myself at all... that's all for now.. I'll blog again tml ?? whatever.. going to play guitar now

‚ô• Saturday, March 05, 2005

7:27 PM

this is hillsong united latest album... known as Hillsong United - Look to you.. there is a couple of nice songs in there.. hmm.. should I purchase it ? ppl comment ok ? anyway.. I did not buy their previous album.. By the way.. I like the design of the album... hmm.. I think it is creative.. the punkish feeliing.. anyway.. I still have not submit my JAE application.. sigh.. when will weisheng and qiuhui finish deciding... Oh ya.. MI peepz.. I'm so sorry about the pictures.. I still have not upload them.. It's been so long.. I'll put them up soon.. hopefully... tml I have to do visualiser duty for church.. I definitely I hope everything will go well tomorrow.. :p

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7:24 PM

.. I just bought 2 pants.. anyway.. my current blogsin, I uploaded it in blogskins.com.. I'm super surprised.. 27 ppl downloaded it when I uploaded it yesterday.. Amazing.. I always thought it isn't good enough .. whatever it is.. I'm enjoying graphic designing.. that's it... can't wait for wednesday to come.. that will be my first lesson at believer music.. I'm happy... lalala...

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2:47 AM

My Dad has finally allowed me to take what I WANT ...
I was suffering the torment of talking with him yesterday..
but we have come to a conclusion..
that It's my life ..
I decide what I want to do about it..
Anybody who wants me to design your blog.. tell me ok??
I'm super free currently... :] I'll blog again

‚ô• Friday, March 04, 2005

9:46 PM

anyway.. err.. ppl my hse is open on every friday .. ppl who want to come.. just contact me.. it's alpha course...

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5:42 PM

I am bloging again.. sighz.. what have I been doing.. what have I been thinking.. I think I just need to get out of my house.. hang out somewhere somehow... where will I really be waiting for at the end of the tunnel ? could I ever make the right decisions.. I'm vexed.. confused.. lonely.. can anyone tell me what's my heart desires?? I'm just lost

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9:54 AM

Yesterday, I hanged out the whole day from around 10 and reached home at 9 in the night... I went to school with qiuhui, yah mei, weisheng, yang long and khairul.. tried to collect cca record from school but not ready till about 1.. so we went to singapore poly first.. we went there check things out... Creative media design or poly.. this is horrible.. through out the day .. all of them say why must I go snatch places with ppl who can't go JC ........... after that, we went to west coast recreation club to play pool then when we left, all of us got caught in the rain la...then we went to JP to get movie tickets .. then we went to sch to take cca records and stuff.. went to Jp's arcade and played photohunt.. not bad.. then into the cinema.. after watching .. Constatine is quite good than million dollar baby .... geez.. I had a wonderful day besides deciding what to choose where to go and stuff...

I'm screwed la... the course I want to take is there.. but I'm held between it and my Dad... what should I do .... ppl are all encouraging me to go JC.. but my heart doesn't belong there anymore....... I'm numbed.................... anyone can ever bring me out of the trap I'm in ?? I'm left with a day I guess.. around 27 hours.... haix

‚ô• Thursday, March 03, 2005

10:28 PM

anyway... I decided blog again.. to thank a lot of ppl who helped me
for letting me disturb them..
People like brother daniel.. asking him about poly I think since dec 2004..
anyway still thank you..
People who I disturbed.. I'm sorry .. But thank you.. for lending me your ears...

‚ô• Tuesday, March 01, 2005

8:11 PM

I changed the skin again.. what can I say... I love designing.. do i really have the design to do designing.. people, who reads my blog.. even if you have done well for your 'o's or bad.. here is a verse I want to share

For I know the plans I have for you,
declares the Lord, plans to prosper
you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future.

- Jeremiah 29:11

thanks tiffany for the verse she shared with me..

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5:28 PM

yawn... I just the music in my blog.. What can I say... when I lost feel of the music .. i'll change it.. whatever you ppl say.. Finally found 2 planet shakers music.. running after you and big.. I really love them.... found a new way of downloading music.. thanks to my sis I guess.. Don't know how she managed to do it.. anyway.. going to Myanmar for 5 days.. for mission trip.. this is my second time going there.. This time I really hope I get to do something for the people there ... The other time.. to me it seems to be a holiday.. hope this one is better....

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9:34 AM

I hate this...
I finished my blog entry and I can't publish it
retyping it...
A miracle that I passed my a.maths.. Having flung the whole year... with F9 grade
I got C6..
But I'm lost ...
Poly rox! but I missed by the course I want by 2 points... I still have around 4 days to decide...
I want to go into graphic designing.. but I wonder what my parents will think...
Lost.. anybody.. advice ??

Whatever it is.. I pulled my Dad to sign up guitar course with me...
Why am I doing this.. rite ?? My dad likes guitar too.. I can only play simple songs.. I want to learn the fast songs.... whatever it is.. here's a website ----> www.believermusic.com........
Whoever who knows how to play other songs .. teach me.......because.. I'll be learning christian songs.. kind of sad.. I wanted to learn a variety.......

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8:57 AM

I'm satisfied for my results
In my parents eyes, I'm a slacker
I was stoning at the TV during the 'o' levels
when I was handed my results slip.. I looked for a.maths
then I jumped and laughed all the way... I passed my a.maths
Thanks ppl who prayed for me..
I flung my a.maths with F9 results the whole year.. it's true.. try asking my maths teacher..
I'm a hopeless case... I jumped when I saw C6 for a maths
anyway.. I'm mixed up.. NYP offer a course I want to take but it's too far
and SP offer the similar course but I missed by 2 points...
Sigh... what am I to do...... someone teach me..... the people who studied from poly.. help me....
argh...