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‚ô• Wednesday, August 24, 2005
11:08 AM


alright.rightie. I dreamt of doughnuts within 2 hours of sleep. I gues I have not had them for ages since the myanmar trip 2 years back. I didn't go for the 3 hour lectures. I was quite late so I didn't go. I'm just going to be in school for 3 hours and off I go back home. So might as well stay at home. Actually, I seems like positive and everything. But deep down inside, I'm not.I have thought of moving on to another church. I only told some of my friends about it. Because I felt so distant from GOD. I'm quite lost too. Secondly was my responsibilities in church. I have so many things to take care off. But now, I'm off with ushering. Thank GOD for that. Things just change overnight after that talk. After praying and all. I asked GOD if I should continue to stay on. Because I'm sad that I feel so distant from GOD. I was so sad. But I asked GOD to give me a verse if He wants me to stay. Because, I just to be so distant from him. But here's the scripture He gave. Jeremiah 29 :5 Build houses and settle down;plant gardens and eat what they produce. It hit me so hard. Right. Just stay and let GOD do the work. :) to rahs:.. if you're reading this , how now. after that crying, I think I'm fine. no worries kaes ...?
I've been thinking if I should continue RUNNING . I've been runnning since I was 9 . It's been 8 long years. The medals and trophies I have. I wonder if I want to be like my Dad. Play tennis and squash. Interesting right ? Dad plays tennis every week. He stopped playing squash. We moved to Jurong, so far from West Coast. He plays squash every sunday when we used to stay at Clementi. I still remember he broke his tooth when he was playing. So ugly. hahax. I like to run in the squash court. Everytime when no ones playing. I'll be running in the court throwing balls at the wall . But theres like no 'pop' sound when the ball hits the wall. I was so sad. I just kept going on. Until they come in and play. Silly me. It's not easy to let go of Track. After so long since primrary school till now. So hard to let go.